Sent Yit Phang to the airport today ...felt a little empty when he left, I know I will miss him, for the pass three weeks I have been accompanying him around Melbourne...I admit I am feeling tired and sick...but I honestly enjoyed his company...alright cousin..will visit you in LA..soon...(don't ask me when!)......and now...finally I have time to get my stuff sorted, and also to reflect back on what had happened...

I was rather disappointed yesterday...was kinda down and upset...I sort of blamed myself for caring too much over other people...and when the people I cared treated me badly, or rather I should say they were inconsiderate, I was upset...I didn't mean to expect anything from them... I didn't expect them to care about me...but why treat me so? Maybe yeah..I was not care free enough..I was too tensed...I consider too much of the other...I cared too much of other people and neglected my own needs.....I almost gave up on humanity and being caring...but being disappointed doesn't mean I should stop caring for others!!!

Today, I was awaken by the lovable and caring people around me.....There are so many wonderful people...

• Moon...she is alwaz there to just listen, to just care, to accompany me, to give me strenght...she gave me sooo much hope to just carry on with what I am doing..
• Angel...although I hardly spend time with her lately, I know she is always there to give me support...we have the same brainwave...
• ET......not an alien, a wonderful friend and neighbour that I can bully. I know you will be reading this..hehe...but hey..I didn't mean to take anything for granted...you are just tooo great!
• Grace (I wonder since when does she have the name...I firgured that out from friendster) has been listening to all my secrets and crappy stories lately....
• Sherly..too wonderful...too caring.....always wonder if I am doing alright..
• Ann..my cousin in Perth..although far away, she forces me to go to sleep and to rest more.....and also listen to all my crappy secrets...hehe
• Han Kiong..my housemate...very considerate of him to steam the chicken for me instead of frying it...since I am sick!!
• Kerhoong....she called today..although not always around, but I know she cares...and I took her car today to fetch Yit Phang to the airport..... thanks
• Jessica....She cares and I know....but bad me...always got no time to give her a call
• Jin....also forces me to sleep....=P...and listen to all my complains (but I am not gonna compalin anymore)
• Pui Li...wanted to bring some tea up for me....
• Karine..my ex housemate..have been wondering and complaining why I have no time for her lately....opps..sorry....you can have all the time now since Yit Phang has left...
• all my "grandchildren"....
• of course...my parents, my kaima, my aunties and uncles and cousins..My host family........I know they all love me....unconditional love!! You get my unconditional love as well!

and the list goes on......well..so, it is not sooo bad afterall..I am surrounded by soo many thoughtful, understanding, kind and loving people around me....I should be grateful instead!

Thanks my friends....(if your name is not there, you can scold me...hehe...!!!)